with hair bundled up and in more comfortable clothes, i started on a pretty much daunting adventure ahead of me lol. nothing but a run at night after… let me see… more than 3 months of no exercising HAHAHA. my stamina has dipped greatly even though it wasn’t high to begin with. i walked quite a lot, almost half of the time haha!
my very first effort to make a run was kinda hindered by various factors. i realised that my ipod was as heavy and bulky as a brick in my pocket when i ran. okay, i held it in my hand then. besides many red lights, half of my right shoe’s sole came off when i was running LOL! i had tried to ignore it initially but the dragging part started to bug me, so i plucked the whole sole off and threw it into the dustbin lol. moreover, there was a part of the Bishan Park that crept me out. there was a very weird sound grumbling in the tunnel under the iron lid. i could clearly hear it even though the music was blasting in my ears =/. i did nothing but quicky ran off that part.
but the time i had was sort of extraordinary. (: i was kinda mesmerised by the night scene, especially in the Bishan Park. well, some couples aside [lol, who i bet got kinda startled by my singing], the scene before my eyes was really pretty with a crimson red sky and cool breeze. God’s creation is always worth to gaze at.
my thoughts were given room to run around as well. i’ve always known that God’s love for me is too great. and i never felt good that i could ever love Him back with the same amount or somewhere near that infinite level. but somehow, an idea just popped up – ‘love God with God’s love’. more than often would i hear ‘love people with God’s love’ but i wanna try to love God with His love for me as well. i just wanna love God more.
‘i will rise when He calls my name
no more sorrow, no more pain.
i will rise, on eagle’s wings
before my God, fall on my knees
and rise, i will rise.’
these lines have left an impact in me. the devil has been trying to pull me down by making use of my insecurities but i know i will rise with His power. this reminded me of Moses. being a man with many insecurities, he did rise up as a leader to bring the Israelites out of Egypt, just by always being humble and dependent on God’s strength. i questioned myself if i would stay firm for God in the next 2 months, if i could testify Jesus to my parents, if i could show them how i’ve matured. God surely won’t let go of my hands. God will tell me what to do. what i need to do is to keep my faith and trust in Him.
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the unexpected part of the run was that i met my classmate Sathya (sp? oh my LOL!) at J8 when i was walking home [not even running, no more stamina!] in sweat, panting. i was kinda dazed, so it took me a while to recognise him. well, hair dyed and casual clothes. i guess i am still too attached with the IJ uniforms lol. he thought i had already forgotten him haha. but bumping into each other at more or less 12a.m was hardly expected.
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the holy comm team prepared a small celebration for Emelia’s birthday today, erm no, ytd. and the surprise part was kinda screwed lol. we planned that Emelia and i would carry out some last trays, leaving Calean in the room to light candle and stuff. when we were bringing those trays out, i was behind Emelia by one or two feet, she suddenly stepped back and knocked into my trays! the drink was spilt out LOL! all over my 4 trays. and it did really look like blood HAHAHAH! i was stunned at the corridor with Emelia in front of me. ‘should i go back to the room? but Emelia would surely find out about the plan. gah, how?’ but i still decided to go back and she actually followed me back to the room lol. thank God she didn’t notice about the cake which was super obvious to me when i went back lol.
well, happy birthday Emelia! <3 see you next next week!
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this is gonna be shocking LOL.
i went for a shooting spree ytd after the service and i shed blood for don’t-know-how-many-times HAHA!
well, nah, i’ve tried out playing l4d-2 for the first time with my caregroup. i found it quite fun even though it is such a gory and violent game. it caused my head spin. kinda great experience haha! my team lost but i don’t think i performed badly given that i’m a noob at it lol. i like being a Spitter, the acid rocks! HOHOHOH!
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i wanna ask and write sth but i don’t want one more deletion. but God, i pray that the person will be well very soon by Your healing. i’m sure You’ve seen the heart of giving you all in serving. so yep, God, take away whatever sickness. thank You God ^^~
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alright, i need to shower now. i have dried up.
An Damaris <3 Jesus
Bolero by the boys is forever a heart-wrenching song haha!
Sunday means Flash Forward x). can’t wait for a new episode at 10p.m :D